Friday, December 31
hello and welcome 2011 !! haha ! so in th end i went to celebrate th new year at Sinqapore Flyer with some of BSP includinq Fahmyie and all . ferst i went to meet Wan Acai, Junior and their clan at City Hall . but later they needed to qo to Vivo City . so i taq alonq wit BSP as sumbody said she was qonna be around ther too . she qave me hiqh hopes of meetinq , but then all tat was shattered when at th struck of midniqht, she still wasn't by my side . i knew all too well that she was havinq too much fun with her fwens or whoever uqhs . im freakinq mad sia ! i was lyke this is th third tyme, what she tryinq to say ? if you dont lyke me or what just say uqh, please .. im beqqinq you sia . i feel so dumb sia at ther . my fwens were dancinq th niqht away and i was sittinq down ther alone . haish . i told myself never to drink aqain, ever . but bcos of this small matter, or rather biq to me, i drank cups of vodka, jim bean and amsterdam . wah ! den mabok sebok . but all that over uqhs . okay i know i complain too much . i quess i just need a listeninq ear or just write it down sumwher . truthfully, i know im chanqed by this thinq and criuzly i dont lyke it but when i open my heart, people take advantaqe . so this heart will close . it will open only when i hear words of sincerity frem her . lets just say fer now, th word LOVE SUCKS !! i hate it .
hmms, i just wanna say sumtinq to her . err, you know . even if you were cauqht up with fwens or what, i can come and meet you if you said you couldn't come to my place . but you sound so confident sia that you cominq . so i waited lyke fuck you know . if only you knew what im feelinq rite now, how you wish you could really turn back tyme . since you dont want to meet me, all i qot to say ish enjoy your lyfe aites . try not to paitow other quys th way you did to me . i remembered that you were scared that i would leave/iqnored you, but looks lyke rite now im th one qettinq "dump" . yea, th way you treat me, i feel lyke trash . thanks alot ! niways happy new year yea ? well fer you it is happy, but me ? hahs . nebmyne , i know who i am . thanks aqain :')
arrqqh !! FUCK !! dah lame sak aqu tq nanqes pcl pompan . i was qonna qive my all to her if everythinq qoes well beyy it turns out this way . wtf sia ! haish . whye ish th world so cruel to me ? whye ? im better off dead sia lyke this . don't wait till im dead then you'll meet me . hope not . please fer once . lets just meet can ?Labels: start of a new year 2011
shattered`* 15:42
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Thursday, December 30
heys peeps ! so this will be my last post fer 2010 !! wow ! cant belive tyme travel so damn fast . i still remember th year started last year wher i was still makinq a decision of qoinq to ite or sec 5 . haha ! well since then alot of thinqs happen - met my ex and cried in front of her, criously from deep in my heart at tat tyme i was sad ; doinq new thinqs; met a new love and in th end qettinq bastard aqain, hahs ; finishinq my 'O'-levels and celebratinq after tat; found new love on 14 feb at fb ; now qettinq scared of th results . hahaha ! what a year ! now i qotta make a desicion on how to end this qreat year ~ qoinq to Sentosa or hanqinq out with family ? hmms . i qot less than 5 hours to make that decision . hahs .
niways, Ririehy Dollie said she wanted to meet me and follow me, but now she miqht have other plans . hmms . cant force people to follow, i quess ? different people wanna celebrate th end of the year in a different way . so i just have to let her make that decision (:
so Happy New Year everybody !!! qo out and just enjoy .Labels: end of 2010 ~
shattered`* 23:49
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Sunday, December 26
Hey peeps ! on the 26th, ther was kluaran by Jaran Sembrani . watch it wit my TJ clans , so the qereks ! hahas ! we all were kinda waitinq fer ein to "mabok" . altoqether he mabok two tymes . hys kpale and kaki darah bcos of kace . rawk aqh lu ! hahas .as th show end, ther was this thouqht that suddenly came to my mind - how come i asked her out or sumtinq, she never come, but on few occasions, even on rainy days, she could still qo out and meet fwens ? it took me awhile to think it out . but i manaqe not to think of it too much but it has already affected me until now . i feel so down, which make me post few thinqs at fb . here are th thinqs i posted .
artiste - sonqtitle ~ part of lyrics .
Nelly - One and Only ~ Girl I Need To Know That I Can Be Your One and Only ♥
Nelly - Just A Dream ~ Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
Eminem ft. Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie ~ and i love it the more i suffer, i suffocate
Enrique Igalsias ft. Ciara - Takin' Back My Love ~ I gave it all up, now i'm takin' back my love . I've given you too much
Ne-yo - So Sick ~ And I'm so sick of love songs . So tired of tears . So done with wishing you were still here . Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow . So why can't I turn off the radio ?
Raghav - No No ~ So what you're 'bout to say is my biggest fear, last thinq i needed to hear is that you no longer love me / Promise when you close your eyes, you're only dreaminq of me ♥
My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words ~ Now I know, that I can't make you stay . But where's your heart ? and I know, there's nothing I can say, to change that part
all that and one sonq : My Chemical Romance - The Ghost Of You .
to be continued ..
shattered`* 09:59
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Tuesday, December 21
heys ! hahs . two days before, ther was a an outinq at ecp . ther was a total of 14 people ther includinq me - bruno danish, ida sepet, junior mccoy, bbysu, idy satsat, skull sachok, kecyk chucky, eira dawlyy, wan acai, fydaa, boii ayim, mira and bob aka koko feat shorty toyol( name qiven by me - hahas !) . so in th afternoon, ther was only danish, junior, bbysu and ida sepet . slowly th rest came . this outinq was also meant to celebrate idy's bday . ther was no intention to stay overnite at ferst, but they insisted that i ton wit them . so i just did . cos idy's bday th day after . i also invited sumbody over but couldn't make it . ouh well, what to do . cant be forced if sumtinq came up rite ? hmms .
to bday boyy, Idy Satsat, Happy 13 B'day ! aru 13 yer ? hahas ! pelan'pelan kayoh yer . niways, harap kaw enjoy b'day kaw (:
at nite, bbysu invited her yishun fwens over . th were all from Sakong, i think . bbysu went to meet them at macdonalds and almost everybody followed . they were sittinq inside, and me, danish, junior wanted to qo to th toilet at macs and also see who her fwens was . later we qot word that we were starinq them semacam . mrepek per ? pdehal drnq yq stare kte ulu . hahs ! K U N I K . we just iqnored whatever they wanted to say cos we wanted to enjoy th nite . so nobody wanted to qet into a fiqht . later on, danish, ida, acai and me went to buy drinks . then near our camp, we drank th nite off . but only me, ida and acai drank a little, skull, ayim and all th other qerls didnt touch th drink also and th rest finished th 4 bottles .
to th mabok sebok boy, Junior Mccoy, kaw dah mabok kecoh per ? " kaw tahu tq, smlm, aqu maen blackshot, aqu bunoh 7 ornq siol " den acai replied," aqu tahu'tahu . aqu yanq bunoh member kaw sumerq . " den junior qot in a raqe and shouted " babi kaw ! kaw bunoh member aqu per ! " den .. he trip and fall . hahas ! xD klakar sak kaw . aru minom brape den mabok sebok . ornq sroh muntah tqnq plaq . at last ameq kaw, duet ilanq laqh, kakak kaw kene ameq kaw pcl kaw dah senqet . hahas ! kecoh aqh lu .
so th rest played th quitar, played card qames, chatted thruout th whole nite . in th card qames, Ida Sepet, kena OWNED by Alyph and Ayim, fer losinq 8 tymes in 11 qames . hahas ! :D
to Fydaa, secret'secret ehk . sape yq bdq pioneer yq fydaa uke ? bdq tuqh conferm dah nq kluar pioneer cos fyda terckp yq dye dah bkan pioneer, den ckp pioneer . conferm bkan ayim rite ? tpi tqpe, alyph dah tolonq bobal nqan ayim bout krnq nyer r/s so now fyda[a]yim is back rite ? hahas , last lonq taws . no more fiqht over small matter ehk . just remember, was it worth it to waste all th tyme you've been toqether and throw it all away just bcos of sumtinq irrational lyke facebook ? haha ! chill luqhs krnq . kecoh uqhs . haha !
den yesterday morninq, me, acai, bbysu, danish, kecyk chucky, and koty went to take a dip in th sea . we went too close to the rocks and qot cut . only me, kecyk chucky and acai qot cuts . haha ! it was lonq, deep cuts but ther was no so much blood thouqh, only it was abit painful . den in th afternoon, we pack our stuff, and went off seperately . i went to my shop at Kamponq Melayu, cos ther is air-con here . haha ! i loq-in and i saw she was online den few seconds later, offline . hmms .. i didnt want to think much but ther ish this sonq that wherever i qo i will immediately think of her . but i dont know what to do now . im just confused and now im avoidinq my other fwens as well bcos of this . i know its stupid but this is just me . i just do whatever i feel lyke doinq . now, i wanna rot while listeninq to sonqs now . buhbyes .
Labels: outinq at ecp
shattered`* 10:56
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Sunday, December 19
Hey peepos ~ RiriehyDollie again here. I've read this gundu's blog, &I just wanted to reply to it. Well, just wanna say, you're a really a gundu luh baby. ;D When you posted that onto your Facebook, &I already understood what had happened &what you were feeling, but I step budow. I wanted to see if you'd actually tell me th truth. Imma smart girl, yknowwwww! You takley tipu I. ;DD But you lied, &I diam. I understand why you didn't wanna tell me, &it's okay love (: I'm not angry w you, I swear.
Now I wanna scold you ~ I thought you knew me well! What makes you think that our relationship would change if you were to tell me you had feelings for me? Weird luh you. Our relationship will still remain as it is, no matter what happens. But like I said, we're both not ready for a relationship yet. Am I right? I hope I am. ;D Silly boy uh you ~ HAHAHA. I'm not goina have a boyfriend anytime soon. &Neither will I get back w my ex. Cause when I say something is over, I mean that it's OVER. There's so use forcing ourselves if we know we can't make it right? &I know very well for myself that there's no way me &him can ever be able to work things out, cause we're both too egoistic. I can't just push all th blame to him, cause it was my fault too. So jyeah ~ But in th end, I threw away my ego, but he didn't want to, not even for my love w him. So that's where it ends. &That fairytale story is over, just w a not very happy ending. (:
You know right, my life macam, kecoh - heboh. I don't stay w my family, blahblahblah. So much more. That's why I think, I wanna stable myself first, bfore I get into another relationship which will only end up wasting my time. &We've only known each other for awhile, though it feels like years already. So let's not rush into something that we'll end up regretting alright, love? But I want you to know, whatever it is, our relationship remains th same. Nothing will ever change. &Kalau ada jodoh satu hari nanti, kita akan bersama. Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. Right? All we havtu do is be patient, &keep going down th right path.
Takmu I daa type gini panjang, you pulak yang tak layan I! I'll miss you, yknow. (: Thanks honey, th post was really sweet. Love you.
shattered`* 21:33
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heys peepos ! im here aqain . hahas ! so err, i have had any sleep now . im missinq sumbody rite now, maybe thats th reason whye . hahs . kays i just lied sumtinq to sumone dear to me, it was yesterday i think . its about sumtinq i post at fb .
"of all th people, i should have known better sumtinq lyke this was qonna happen . i just let my quard down, aqain . hahs ."
this was initial meant for you :( storyy ish lyke this, i dont tell you my feelinqs . but i kinda fallinq fer you but i didnt want to spoil th friendship we had, so thats whye i kept it to myself . but i knew sumtinq lyke this on th net ish just to qud to be true . so i kept tellinq myself, that this will end all too soon cos you will probably find a quy or miqht qet back wit your ex or sumtinq . so now you understand how it relates to th post i made rite ? hmms . i dont know what to do now cos i know once you read this thinqs will be different so i quess i prepared myself ferst . whatever you wanna do bout this is up to you aites ? :) takecare now . sorry fer lyinq . :(
kays now i qet that off my chest, i have been thinkinq bout how my past r/s endinq . some of you also asked me rite ? so i quess i finally qot th answer . i was qoin thru my mcqs and found it . so i thouqht i wanna share it wit you quys , as it means notinq now . here qoes ..
Between Me and Her
Her November 12 at 8:00pm
ouh skrnq aku tauw ahsal kao kemarok nk g geylang . nor ahder kn ? nyh kao ckp kao tk nk break promish kao ? lancutt , ouhh rupe blakang aku kao cntct dgn dhe , kao jmper dhe . check2 blakang aku kao maen dgn dhe . hah . kao nk sgt kn dgn dhe g uhh !! skrng dh tkder org nk halang kao g geylang perr . tkder org halang kao panggel lina "BHY" lagy . gogogogogo . pegy dgn kao nye puki !
bhy sumpah lpas hari tuari i tq jmpe dye sak .
whye cant u just trust me lyke i alwaeys trusted u ?
pliz luqh . i stakat tanyer jeq per dye dtq qeylanq ke tq .
i tq contact dye pon seyy . u tqmo mepek uqh .
pliz luqh bhy, stop nieq sumerq can ?
Her November 15 at 4:12pm
you ckp nk start a new ? ader you nk carik i?ader you nk msg i ? and you adr ingat our 3mnthsary ? haish . just do what you want to do uh .
dah luqh u . i tqnq qado laqyk, so klao u rase u tqleyy accept diri i laqyk den tqpe uqh . i move on jeq kaeys .
Her November 23 at 8:49pm
okayy , you nk sgt kan move on ? okayy , fine ! i bare with it ~ B Y E !
Go happyhappy dgn ex kesayangan you .
hmms . if it makes you feel any better - i nqan ex i dah tqde pape lanqsunq okaeys . i dh ckp nqan dye i tqnq ad pape nqan dye laqyk .
so please, dont make me do th same to you .
Dh luh . Now i want an answer . You maseh nk dgn i tknk ? Klao tk nk then okayy i tk pakse
mesty laqh you tq pakse, you nqah enjoy sinqle lyfe per . hahs !
untoq i klao you happie den bqos . i rela nqok you happie dripde mataer nqan i . pcl i tawu kte tqkn same mcm ulu laqyk . tis ish the facts . im tryinq to face all tis so you can be happie . so just peqy enjoy your sinqle lyfe kaeys .
Hmm , you nk kte together happy ? Go and change yr attitude . I enjoy bt I know my limit .
my attitude ehk ? hmms .
Her December 4 at 11:27pm
Dh uh lantak. For you im the one yg attitude kn ? Okay go with yr whoever you want . Bye !
be happy kay . bye :)
Her December 9 at 3:44am
Iskisk , its a must . Thnks ehyy . Kao pon .
this was what happen . but of cos, not bcos of this alone we broke off . ther were other mcqs but i cant find 'em . as you quys see, i was beqqinq rite ? yea , im a sucker fer love that is . hahs . but i realise i made some mystakes too . so now its no use . she's enjoyinq her lyfe, as am i . but fer me probs dont qo away overnite . i face them if i can . althouqh at tymes i run away frem them too . kay tyme check 5:11 . i'd better qo to sleep now . so tired . challos ! :)
Labels: love means nothinq rite now
shattered`* 13:11
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hey peepos ! alyph's back :) so you miqht be wonderinq who th chika below is, rite ? well she a fwen i met thru fb . dont believe what she say bout me . she's just over-doinq it :D in fact she more sweeter than you know . niways qud luck in lyfe yea loves ? hahs .
kay update ! what im qoin thru aqain is different from last tyme . so now im at a lost on what to do . help me ? hahs .
`feekah, bestie kushh, aqu ryndu kaw nqan TJ clans ! lame tq slack nqan koranq ehk ? huhu . one day aqu tron sane laqyk kay . aqu myz all th kecoh-ness . hahaha ! :D one more thinq, masam kaw dah nq kluar feek . aqu tawu kaw tq sabar . lets just hope aper yq kte inqt dye akan jady blier dye kluar nnti tq akan terjady ehk . hahas ! :D
`ilah tetot, my other bestie, aqu understand situation kaw . be stronq, kays ? we all are always here untoq kaw . inqat taw, rawkdut tqleyy sdih slalu . :)
hmms, back to me, i feel sumtinq is amiss . mcm ad bende tq kene qytu . maybe its bcos sumbody tibe'tibe senyap th whole day, online pon tq . huhu . sdih nyer aqu nieq . well, what to do . not every day ish sunny :(
kay luqhs, be back anytyme to update me bloq aqain aites ? challos !
hope im not wastinq my tyme on love now :)Labels: stay stronq ..
shattered`* 10:36
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Saturday, December 18
HELLOHELLO! (:
It's RiriehyDollie here. (: You know, that girl who look like anak patong like that. ;D Korang tak kenal saya, means korang sungguh tak hawtstuff luh niy. PRASAN EH AKU? LOL. HAHA, I'm kidding luh ~ Anyway, this superduper sweetest boy asked me to help him update his blog, &jyeah that's what I'm doing. This boy uh, pemalas btol ler ~ Nak ader blog, but taknak update sendiri. :DD Tak baek eh aku, asyik kcau orang jer. Hyper uh, dari smlm. LMAO ~
Well, just wanna say, this boy kan, makes a really good friend. He's like, super sweet, caring, good - looking, loving &friendly! &I'm pretty sure he'll make an even better boyfriend. So girls out there who have hurt him, don't bother coming back. Cause he's moving on, &he'll forget you. &He'll make sure not to repeat th same mistakes he did in th past. As for those out there who's interested in him, go ahead &give it a try. He's really a great guy. I'm a girl, I know. (: But remember, hurt him, &you'll receive a HIYAKDUSH ~ from me in time to come. ;DD
Ohhh, &for th girls who are interested, confirm korang pikir, asal aku blog untuk dia klau aku stakat kawan or whatever shit it is kan? Yes, kiter kawan. Rapat sekali. &Th reason why we're close is that we're pretty much in th same situation when it comes to love. &Also, we got close through music. HAHA, you peeps prolly don't understand. Only Alyph &I will. (; But for now, that's it. Whether we'll fall in love in th future or something like that, we don't know. Cause right now, both of us don't want / need a relationship in our lives. Well, I guess till somebody who can take care of us come along (: Kalau ader jodoh, takkan ke mana right? (: My all - time favourite quote. ;D
Kay luh, I blog longer than th owner already. KAYCOH WHYE! HAHAHA. Gotta go, wanna continue chatting with Alyph. Good morning peepos ~ (:
shattered`* 17:27
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Friday, December 17
see the pic above ? idk why but people lyke it . haha ! :D alot of compliments were qiven to & i lyke it !! haha !
heys peepos ! ~ im back (: yesterday went to admiralty to watch kude kepanq and hopinq sumone would show up, but eventually didnt . hahs . but its okay . can say im used to it . haha !(:
at last phone up adeq, who now stayinq that area, and ask to lpaq :D so ther was me, adeq and bear . after that bouqht ciqqies den slack fer awhile den qo back our ways .
now im at my shop at qeylanq, doin notinq but rot . hahs . kay luqhs . notinq to say .
except tat - qerl, you are kiyuut . hahas ! ~ <3
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shattered`* 11:43
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Sunday, December 12
heys people ! finally done with my new bloqskin . now im freakinq tired . haha ! th pic above ish th new ME ! nah ! its only fer prom nite . :D so i qot a few storyy to share here, ther was RED CAMP 7 & its NINJAS outinqs, followed up wit my official bweak-up wit "bby comot" and also lyfe after all that . :)
lets start off with RED CAMP 7 . it was a blast !! :D my favourite was definitely hop-nite, it was just lyke clubbinq . ther was DJ(butter factory) spinninq hits, multiple liqhtinqs . definitely qreat ! i met new fwens & they were equally awesome !! :D my tribe in RED CAMP 7 was the NINJAS ! ther were cheers and all . th NINJAS outinq was at sentosa ! few pictures were taken but lazy to upload . haha ! :D that too was a blast !!
bweak-up storyy tyme . hmms, cant remember a thinq thouqh . i dont remember why we fiqht den suddenly all i know ish we breakinq up . hmms ~ movinq on .. so lyfe continue to qo as per normal and it seems to be qettinq better :D believe it or not, in a weeks tyme, i qot qerls smilinq, wavinq, chattinq and textinq wit me already . haha ! cool rite ~ but i try to not qet into any r/s, at least fer now :)
so thats all i quess . final words ~ lyfe must carry on no matter what, rite honey ? haha ! :DLabels: th rawkstarr
shattered`* 13:42
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